I don’t even know if it’s worth living anymore. I’m sick of flirts and teases. I’m sick of these emotions. I’m sick of my parents always yelling at me for the smallest things. Does anyone have a gun? I’m gonna fucking pull the trigger to my head, because if not mine, then it’ll be to the head of someone who really gets on my nerves. So don’t be that person, unless you wanna meet me in hell.
Joey Uy. It wouldn’t be life if some serious bullshit wasn’t involved. That’s something I wanna say right away.
Relationships are hard to come by. For some people more than others. Me included. Joey, I’ve never had a legitimate boyfriend before. Everytime I come close, I find out that it’s all wrong. And it definitely hurts to be led on. I feel you on that one. It’s not an easy thing. All I’ve ever wanted to do was fall in love. But it takes so much effort. Some chicks flirt and tease, but there are genuine girls out there who could like you immensely. So don’t miss out on them. You have to find them. All that single-ready-to-mingle-but-not-getting-anything-so-far shit? I’m in the same boat, homie. I know how ya feel, so don’t hesitate to talk to me about it.
And sorry to quote a Will Smith song, but parents just don’t understand. I have lived with my dad, and only my dad, for so long. And it’s so hard being a girl brought up by just a father. He doesn’t understand certain aspects of my life. He doesn’t understand why I do certain things. In fact, he doesn’t understand my passion for theatre. He only sees a fraction of the things I see. But that’s to be expected. Sometimes they just put you through some serious mind-fuckery (come on, that word HAS to make you smile!). They’re here on this earth to raise us and look out for us. And it gets so much harder for them when we’re teenagers. You’ll definitely see them start to get pissier in your senior year. You’re their kid and you’re growing up. It’s hard for ‘em. So even though they might not realize it, they can be extra hurtful during our teen years. But I’m talking like I’m 30 years old or something. Truth is, I’m still going through it myself. But they love you, fer sure.
But Joey Uy, if you ever do so much as think suicidal thoughts, I would be completely beside myself. I would miss you completely. I would cry buckets (But We Don’t quote?) And so would countless others. Don’t ever think about cutting your life short. Ever. You can do so much in your lifetime, believe me. Don’t take your happiness, your talent, and your good nature away from the world. We’d lose so much.
“So I look in your direction, but you pay me no attention, do you? I know you don’t listen to me cuz you say you see straight through me, don’t you? On and on from the moment I wake to the moment I sleep. I’ll be there by your side. Just you try and stop me. I’ll be waiting in line just to see if you care. Did you want me to change? Well I’d change for good. And I want you to know that you always get your way. I wanted to say… Don’t you shiver?”—"Shiver" - Coldplay
I just don’t understand the concept. I just slept for 8 hours, so I’m immediately going to eat pancakes and bacon? I have never once woken up and thought “Damn, I’m hungry.”
I mean sure, it gives your body energy for the rest of the day and all the bullshit. All I really need is a cup of coffee or some OJ and I’ve got my energy. I don’t like eating breakfast. Seems unnecessary to me.
I feel like the only REAL reason people eat breakfast is just because it’s part of the routine. Not because they’re actually hungry.
But that’s just me. Maybe people actually are hungry. I dunno.
It may sound stupid to the rest of the world, and I know that it really IS stupid, but this is how I roll.
So everybody better get used to me talking about Drama Club.
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